When Madison agreed to allow me to guest post, my stomach started doing back flips and I got that shaky, weak feeling that comes with being nervous - and I'm feeling something pretty similar today. You see, the post I wrote for Espresso and Cream isn't something I have ever, ever talked about. Not even to Mike. It's raw, real and something that I think people who know me will be surprised to hear.
Before I submitted the post, I showed it to Mike, prefacing it with asking him to not judge me, think I'm exaggerating, and to know that I don't struggle with it as much any more. I had shared other insecurities with him before, but I had never told him about this. I knew he would be shocked, but I wasn't prepared for the sadness he reacted with. That night, we had a great conversation, (I cried a lot) and I feel even more freedom in my looks than I ever have before.
Everything written in the post is true, and at times, I still worry that I'm the only one that has ever felt this strongly and I'm making a fool of myself by laying it all out on the table. But then I remember how alone I felt when I was dealing with my insecurities. I didn't have the courage to speak up and tell someone, and maybe that's where you're at today. I know the pain, the fear, the anxiety, and deep down, I know I'm not the only one. So I hope you read my story and find encouragement, feel identified with, and at the very least, feel less alone.
Read the post here.